February
2011 - Email
Message -
Andraz.
Hey no problem again. Me and Akiko were really happy your friends enjoyed
themselves. They are welcome anytime. Want to make sure about the names though.
Petra is the girl.
Luka is the boyfriend.
Miha is the friend.
Please tell me if this is correct. Posted a link to pictures on my site.
http://howiehayman.com/.
Send email when you can.
Howie.
February
2011 - Email
Message -
Andraz.
Hey no problem. Actually I am taking Akiko shopping around 12:30 today. You can
pick up your bike anytime. Tomorrow works if you want. Either way going to leave
the snack you brought in the basket of your bike before you come. Both of us
with teeth problems now and cannot eat it. Since it is your favorite wanted to
return it to you. Next party in a couple weeks. Send email when you can.
Howie.
February
2011 - Email
Message -
Howie.
Hey I know this author or course. I know the titles of a few of his publications
Crime and Punishment, The Idiot, The Brothers Karamazov but did not read any of
these. I know the book you plan to read is about existentialism. Should be
interesting reading. Incidentally it is an engineer who drives a train. Planning
to work a bit tonight but mostly relaxing with only a little wine and talking
with the wife. Send email if you are online tonight.
February 1, 2011 - Email
Message -
Ayumi.
Hi. I was home when you called the other day but could not listen to the phone
at all then. Was probably busy with the little dude. Anyway still not sure when
I plan to go back to SD. Many things happening now with work and other stuff.
Actually considering going to Thailand for a bit. Send email when you can.
Howie.
February 3, 2011 - Email
Message -
Ayumi.
Hi. I am really trying to hang in there and stay in Japan. Really want to go
home more every day. Cannot handle Japanese thinking anymore. Actually thought
Japanese people were very unhappy because they deny themselves everything.
Anytime worrying about the thinking of others. Now realize Japanese people are
not unhappy. They do not know anything except Japanese way and simply except. It
is like a kid who does not ever eat cake. Then they do not know about the good
taste and do not miss it. If they eat cake then they know the good taste and
cannot go back to no cake anymore. Japanese people do not ever eat cake and do
not know happiness in the way American does. Send email when you can.
February 4, 2011 - Email
Message -
Ayumi.
Hi. I am getting ready for class today. Send email when you can.
Howie.
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 February
7, 2011 - Super
Bowl....um....Monday. Hey
I suppose this is what the little guy thought about the
Super Bowl this year. Really was fun watching the game live
on TV although we watched in Monday morning in Japan. Shai
made it until there was only a few minutes remaining in the
game. |
February 7, 2011 - Email
Message -
Ayumi.
Hey I am working and on my to getting drunk tonight again. I watched the super
bowl on tv live in the morning today. It was fun but not even close to the same
as watching it in my own country. Yeah songs at the beginning really made me cry
and realize the pride in my country. I am really American. When I came to Japan
many years ago wanted to act like Japanese. Why? Now I realize it is cool to be
American. When we make parties and invite friends to the house acting really
American now. Any you know they really like it. Need sex now. Send email when
you can.
Howie.
February 7, 2011 - Email
Message -
Really good sex with myself recently. Yup this is marriage you know.
February 8, 2011 - Email
Message -
Jim.
Um raining today and will be in the house. You guys go ahead and eat dinner and
relax and then send email if you chat. Should be on the computer today except
when feeding the little guy. Hey thanks for posting on the HuuHuu site.
Beginning work on the education site and the recipe site now. These were long
time neglected projects. Going to finish them within the next few weeks.
http://homeeducationacademicprogramschool.com/
Send email when you can.
February 8, 2011 - Email
Message -
Jim.
Hey I wanted to give you an update. Now the little dude is sleeping and a chance
for me to workout. Probably finish between nine and ten your time. Maybe you can
chat then. Send email when you can.
February 8, 2011 - Email
Message - Linda.
Hi. I am really looking forward to email from you saying you are feeling better
again. I know you are not well for quite some time now. If you ever want to get
away for awhile you can come and stay with us anytime. You get the ticket and do
not worry about anything else. It would be wonderful for you to come and stay
with us for awhile. Sooner would be better though.
We are hanging in there and trying to work through a lot of marriage problems.
Yup we even talked about divorce several times. This is really a long story.
Suffice to say all the cultural and personality differences really caught up
with us over the last year. Much of it is personality though. Actually we are
not fighting this year but things continue to not be good. I am drinking pretty
much every night for the last year. Something is obviously wrong with this
picture. Fairly good chance the house will be put on the market and I might
return home sometime this year. It sure would be nice to simply come to your
house now and talk.
Anyway watched the superbowl in japan and live. Could not get into the game at
all thought. Watched it in the morning with Shai. Really not exciting.
I really miss you. Send email when you can.
Howie.
February 8, 2011 - Email
Message -
Ayumi.
Hey we are putting the house up for sale this week.
February
8, 2011 - Email
Message -
Andraz.
Hi. I was talking with Akiko this evening. She informed me more people are
coming to the house this weekend. Should be a lot of fun. Actually we decided to
make this the party weekend instead of the 26th this month. It turns out my
students cannot come on the day we planned but might be able to come this
weekend. This will be a potluck again as usual. Really looking forward to see
which food you decide to bring.
Hey I think Akiko told you about the snack you kept at the house. I thought you
were coming to get the bike and since we were planning to go shopping I decided
to put everything in the basket on the bike. It seems like some crows took
everything and actually knocked your bike over. Really want to apologize for
this.
Anyway send email tonight about all this if you can.
Howie.
February
8, 2011 - Email
Message -
Then I can not divorce easily because of my kids.
I thought anytime about my kids.
It was most important for me to live together as a family.
February
8, 2011 - Email
Message -
Howie Hayman wrote.
Really wondering why you cannot understand. You divorced from your husband
because things were not good. Maybe it was difficult but you might be happier
now because you stayed single for many years. It is the same in this house. We
are not happy together. It is simple to understand. You do not want to be with
someone who you are not happy with. It is very easy.
February
8, 2011 - Email
Message -
looks good couple.
but I already know actually you and she cannot fit sometime.
February
8, 2011 - Email
Message -
Howie Hayman wrote.
Funny you say anytime. It is very strange for you to say this. We are fighting
anytime, no sex, no communication, cannot understand each other. IS THIS A GOOD
COUPLE?
February
8, 2011 - Email
Message -
Your work is good because you are getting money for your family.
not only playing.
Also you have your own dream to success someday in your future.
It is wonderful thing.
February
8, 2011 - Email
Message -
Howie Hayman wrote.
No. It does not matter for me. she does not respect her husband anytime. Cannot
worry her thinking anymore. She is embarrassed to tell friends about my Internet
work. Many things do not like her thinking.
February
8, 2011 - Email
Message -
Was she really agree with you?
February
8, 2011 - Email
Message -
Howie Hayman wrote.
Um actually not really. simply said going to change party date. now we are not
talking as usual. does not matter anyway.
February
8, 2011 - Email
Message -
Howie.
I understand.
Really complicated reason.
I am going to tell then about changing your party.
But I don't know they can come or not though.
Anyway are there many friends of Akichan in your house now?
February
8, 2011 - Email
Message -
Howie Hayman wrote.
Ikuko.
Hi. I want to explain about the party. A couple weeks before Akiko made a party
for her friends. Then I asked if I could invite someone. It was only a joke but
she said no. Then I said it was Andraz and she agreed for him to come.
This weekend was supposed to be a party for Yuki and her friend. Then last night
Akiko told me Andraz is coming with a couple friends from Slovania. Then tonight
she told me he is bringing even more friends and now coworkers are coming. This
was supposed to be a small intimate dinner and now turned into a lot of people.
Akiko was not asking before but simply made the decision and then told me.
Tonight I wanted to invite friends and she said no again. I said this is my
house. Anytime I make a party for my friends, any of her friends and family are
invited. When she makes a party she invites who she wants without telling me and
then says not to invite my friends. Tonight I told her she is wrong and unfair.
Then I wanted to change party to this weekend because good chance for everyone
to meet people from other countries. Then she agreed.
I really do not want you to go crazy and freaked out with this. Simply come to
the party and invite all the usual people. Send email when you can.
Howie.
February
8, 2011 - Email
Message -
I think it is different between your reason and my divorce's reason.
My reason is very difficult to live because of money problem.
of course I wanted to live with him and my kids as possible as we can.
But it could not.
He made a lot of problem for not only me and kids but also around my family.
Can you understand it?
We can not live because he spent a lot of money for gamble also love affair.
Maybe you cannot understand it.
We really liked each other though.
February 9, 2011 - Email
Message -
Jim. Linda.
Hey guys. Hey I want to apologize about chat not working out. This week is kind
of unusual since it warmed up. Really want to take the little guy outside as
much as possible. Actually chatting works much better for me in the afternoon
your time since I am usually on the computer and Shai watches a bit of TV. Seems
like this week is not going to work but can plan for next week some time. Send
email when you can.
February 10, 2011 - Email
Message -
Jim. Linda.
Hey guys it is snowing like crazy. Me and Akiko took little Shai out for a long
time to play in the snow. Posted a bunch of pictures.
http://howiehayman.com/
Send email when you can.
February 10, 2011 - Email
Message -
Ayumi.
Hey it is snowing like crazy. Me and Akiko took little Shai out for a long time
to play in the snow. Posted a bunch of pictures.
http://howiehayman.com/
Send email when you can. |
 February
11, 2011 - Snowing Like
Crazy Today. We
woke up today to a beautiful blanket of white snow. Me and
Akiko took little Shai outside for a couple hours to play. I
made this snowman and got a really strange reaction from the
neighbors. Everyone was really surprised the snowman had
three sections. In Japanese a snowman typically has only two
sections. Went and Googled snowmen to make sure I was not
going crazy. Although it hailed at my house in Japan before,
this is the first time since living in Kenmore to receive
snow on a property I own. |
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February 11, 2011 -
Facebook Post -
Yup Super Bowl….um….Monday in Japan. Actually the little dude made it through
most of the game. We could actually watch the game live although the commercials
were not shown. Next year would really be nice to see Buffalo in the playoffs
again. |
 February
12, 2011 - Another Fun
Party. Another
successful party with some old friends and some new friends.
We planned a small dinner which turned out
to be a regular party with around 15 people total. A few came after this picture
was taken. We continue to learn more about Slovenia from our
friends and are now hoping to plan a trip there someday. |
February 12, 2011 - Email
Message -
Ayumi.
Hey really sucks. No doubt you can contribute a lot to the site based on your
previous relationships and stuff. Posted pictures from another fun party last
night.
http://howiehayman.com/
Talk a look when you can.
February 13, 2011 - Email
Message -
Howie.
Maki came back awhile ago.
She went to the concert of Taylor Swift with Miki today.
She said she and Miki saw Andraz at the Tennoji station in Osaka on the way to
back home around 9:00pm.
She said Andraz was with some other foreigners.
Maybe they are Andraz and his slovenian friends who came to your party
yesterday.
She and Miki very enjoyed the concert at Osaka catsle hall.
They are very excited now because they could touch Taylor and her mother today.
Ikuko.
February 15, 2011 - Email
Message -
Ayumi.
Hey I took the little dude walking. Was doing a lot of thinking. Now back to
work again. Send email when you can.
February 16, 2011 - Email
Message -
Ayumi.
Yeah no shit. Really I should be getting sex every night with a woman next to
me. Nothing. This is going to be no sex this year. Can get but do not want to do
unless other person really enjoys. If no passion with the other person then can
use a hand maybe a pillow. You are mental problem now. I am mental problem now.
Getting drunk every night. What the fuck is wrong with this picture. We are both
very passionate people living in a country where passion cannot be expressed.
You can understand about this.
February 17, 2011 - Email
Message -
Ayumi.
Hey I can tell you about another situation which is really wrong. These days my
wife is leaving the house at 8 am and coming home after 8 pm every night.
Actually tonight is was almost ten when she came home. Japan really sucks in
many ways. You already know this.
February 17, 2011 - Email
Message -
Ayumi.
Actually Akiko was really not happy in SD. Then we came to Japan. Nice place to
visit suck place to stay. Making a plan to go home.
February 17, 2011 - Email
Message -
Ayumi.
Want to talk. Recently Akiko is coming home very late every night. Tomorrow will
be really late again. Getting tired of this. |
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February 17, 2009 -
Facebook Post -
is with Akiko and completely snowed in at our friend's cabin spending our third
night. I am drinking wine which Akiko cannot....guess why?
is with Akiko on Palomar Mountain with limited Internet access. Will reply to
everyone later this week. Thanks for understanding. Until then. |
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February 19, 2011 - House - No Reason Party. This
party was already planned and ended up only a week after our
previous get together. A pretty small group compared to
other parties but lots of fun nonetheless. |
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February 19, 2011 - Email
Message -
Jim.
um it might be more towards eleven your time. Cannot drive now. We need to go
shopping walking and taking the train. Kinda difficult to know exactly when we
are going to return. Should be good though. Send email when you can. |
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February 20, 2011 -
Email Message - Hey. I'm planning to take a
train in about 45 minutes, so I shold come to your place in about 1 and a half
hour. Is that OK? Best Regards, Andraž Žagar. |
February 22, 2011 - Email
Message -
Ayumi.
Hi. I really think this is it this time now. We are putting the house on the
market this week and the little dude will go to preschool in a couple months. I
wanted to talk with you today but was busy with the kid. Send email when you
can.
Howie.
February 27, 2011 - Email
Message -
Ayumi.
Hi. I am sick with bronchitis again. Really nice outside today and decided to
work on a few projects. Now pretty wiped out. Going to eat spicy nabe and get
drunk again to knock this thing out. Really enjoying my work these days.
Planning many new projects within the next few months. Yeah you should leave
Japan. Send email when you can.
Howie. |
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February 1, 2011 - Email Messages -
Hi. Yup. I am wondering if you plan to bring lunch. Actually there is some
delicious alcohol waiting for you now.
February 2, 2011 - Email Messages -
Ikuko.
Hi. I really enjoyed meeting you.
Thank you again for the food.
Really you need to relax more and not worry about everyone thinking.
Actually you were really the only person freaking out about coming to the house.
If you keep worrying too much then might become difficult to meet.
Your thinking is coming and makes me crazy.
Anyway working and then going out today.
Send email when you can.
Howie. ********
Actually I really can understand your thinking.
Akiko said she can know this Japanese thinking.
Really everyone know this situation with you and me.
If everyone can relax then things will be good.
Anyway more site problems today.
Going to take much of the afternoon off and go outside.
Send email when you can.
February 3, 2011 - Email Messages -
Ikuko.
Hi. I realize now it is not possible to depend on Akiko for business anymore.
I know you said you would do many things if I ask you.
Really want you to post many things if you want.
Maybe it is good practice for your English.
Want to know if you can do this.
Send email when you are online tonight.
Howie.
February 5, 2011 - Email Messages -
Hi. I went backpack shopping today. I bought the equivalent of 16 bottles of
wine and other food. Now relaxing tonight. Planning to do some work. Class today
was really fun. Yappari easier to teach students who can speak English. Want to
ask you to do something this weekend. Send email when you can online tonight.
********
Hey I think you went crazy because of the site. No problem though. Anyway I was
coloring my hair and than doing Akiko today. Now we are both beautiful. Taking
Shai for a walk now. Send email when you can.
February 6, 2011 - Email Messages -
now hair is completely black with no gray. wanted to put some brown streaks but
could not work. my hair is really strong to not accept color. was cutting her
hair and then she put color. both of us look beautiful now.
February 6, 2011 - Email Messages -
Party is changed to this weekend. Want you to tell sister, students, and family
as soon as you can. Thanks.
February 8, 2011 - Email Messages -
Hey no sex this year already. ********
yippee can become a monk. recently use my had to feel good. married with a wife.
makes no sense. marriage to the wrong person sucks you know. ********
Going to make decision then. Keeping the party on 19 of this month. Then will
talk with Akiko about you coming. Will then talk with you tonight. If you cannot
wait then you should keep your other plan for this weekend. This is my decision.
Send email when you can.
February 9, 2011 - Email Messages -
Ikuko.
Hi. I want to explain about the party next week. Actually going to keep the same
date and no changes. Really the only reason for wanting to change this week was
because many people from different countries are coming and thought it was a
good chance for students and friends to experience this situation. It seems many
cannot come and going to keep the party next week for the usual group. It is
going to be different this time since many of your family cannot come. Going to
invite different people next week. Send email when you can.
Howie. ********
Actually I need to tell you very straight. We were going to invite Takagisan.
Akiko does not want any kids at this party and decided to tell about party. It
is her coworkers and their friends. She wants a quiet evening with only adults.
Your friend is welcome to come but cannot bring kids. Send email when you can.
********
Mou. This is not your party. Why are you asking so many questions? It is very
rude.NO TAKGISAN IS NOT COMING. Really I think it is better for you and your
friend to come next week to the party. Then kids can come. Maybe better to keep
only friends of Akiko for this party. It is what she wants anyway. ********
Ikuko.
Hi again. I really want you to understand about this. Quite honestly you
misunderstand many things in English. You cannot catch many nuances and get the
wrong meaning many times. It is difficult to communicate with you via email
because of this.
I wrote exactly this in a previous email.
We WERE going to invite Takagisan. Akiko does not want any kids at this party
and decided to tell about party. It is her coworkers and their friends. She
wants a quiet evening with only adults.
The meaning is we were thinking about it and then decided not to because Akiko
wants only adults at the party. You need to think more in English and understand
these things.
It is only you asking many questions about the party. Watashi mou tsukareta.
I told you if is no problem for you and your friend to come to the party with no
kids. This was very straight. Really I simply want you to say yes if you want to
come, and no if you do not want to come.
I invited you for a chance to see you, which I already said in a previous email.
It is also a good opportunity for you and your friend to meet new people.
You decide if you want to come with your friend and give me an answer and no
more questions.
Send email when you can. Howie. ********
Hey I think probably you can understand this. Japanese people are making me
crazy. They think and really worry about everything. Send email when you can.
Hi again and again and again and again. I am getting really upset about this
now. I tell you many times you can come and explain everything in detail to you.
And now you still send email about cancel.
Why is it so difficult for you to relax and quit thinking? It is your way
anytime.
I am making the decision for you since you are not capable of doing it your
self. Yes please cancel with your friend this weekend. Go and meet her in an
izakaya and talk.
Akiko knows about all this back and forth conversation concerning the party and
is not happy.
Really you need to quit thinking all the time. It is going to make many problems
between you and me.
Cannot think of any other ways for you to understand. Really upset with you now.
Send email if you want. ********
Recently I am making an effort to be good about many things in Japan. My
marriage with Akiko is not good. I am in the house almost every day except for
going out to the boring farm. Now I cannot meet people during the week and
cannot talk. Recently not happy being in Japan. Keep drinking alcohol every
night. I want time with you to be happy. When you ask many questions it makes
more stuff in my mind. When I invite you it is because I want to see you and
find some happiness in this place. I really need you to relax. It is most
important thing. Then you and I can enjoy. NO MORE THINKING. If you want to do
then you can. I invited you and your friend to the party. It is your decision.
Send email when you decide.
February 10, 2011 - Email Messages -
Ikuko said really like you. ********
Ikuko.
Hi. I told Akiko for the party you are bringing a lot of food and drink and
stuff. I think she was happy. I need to know if you are only bringing yourself
and your friend. Then there is enough chairs. Because many of the guests are not
used to sitting on the floor this party will be on the tables. Anyway if you go
to the next house look at the snowman in the front yard. Posted a bunch of
pictures.
http://howiehayman.com/
Send email when you can.
Howie.
February 11, 2011 - Email Messages -
much snow today and tomorrow. ********
Um now working. Going to try and be online for a couple hours. Pretty tired from
playing outside today.
February 12, 2011 - Email Messages -
Hey I really enjoyed this party and seeing you tonight. I want to talk to you
about many good things. Maybe can meet tomorrow. Send email when you can.
February 14, 2011 - Email Messages -
Yes Japanese culture really limits the way you can act and things you can do. It
is main reason why the little dude cannot go to school in this country. Akiko
agrees with this. Recently she is mendou kusai to talk to everyone. She says
everyone is pushing her because they cannot understand about this. ********
This would only happen if we move back to NY. Actually the school are really
awful in CA. Colleges are good but schools really not good now. ********
Actually Japanese is not as important anymore when compared to language like
English, Chinese and Spanish at least in the business world and economically.
Please understand actually I really like Japan in many ways but it is very
limiting. Many people are unhappy because they are unable to express their
desires both culturally and individually. I really want him to be an independent
thinker and use his mind independently from others. Money is not important to me
at all. Not interested in him working for a company. I prefer he does a job he
is happy and passionate about even it the money is small. Now I am working at a
job with not much money but I enjoy. Recently Akiko is beginning to understand
about this and is more interested in self employment. Working for someone else
means you spend your time and energy only to make a profit for someone else. It
is not happiness it is simply existence. Really want more for my kids. Many do
not understand. Really not sure you can either. ********
Actually I totally can understand your thinking. Yes it is very difficult for a
Japanese woman to stay in America unless she is with a strong American man.
Maybe Akiko cannot make it in American on her own. I was protecting her anytime
even though she cannot realize. Many of my Japanese friends who stayed in
America and were single spent a lot of time really unhappy. Yes Japanese is a
very easy place to stay for sure. It is not crazy like American but it is very
limiting. Japanese people throughout this country think almost exactly the same.
It is an incredible thing for me. Even though many things I really do not like
about America at least I can think for myself. Anytime when I make decisions
like leaving job to make my own company everyone maybe thought I was crazy. It
worked out the then I could retire and do things I want to do now. Even now with
educating Shai at home and doing Internet business many do not get it. Even
Akiko is becoming more Japanese every day. It is difficult and probably I cannot
stay in Japan except for a few years. It will be nice to talk with you more
about this on the weekend. Really want you to read many things but it is
difficult English. Send email when you can.
February 17, 2011 - Email Messages -
I am not going to ask her. I already told her. Why do you worry about her but do
sex with her husband. It is very strange you know.
February 19, 2011 - Email Messages -
Ikuko.
Hi. I was really happy with the party last night. I want to thank you for taking
friends to the train station. It was really nice. Going shopping today. Maybe
see you outside. Send email when you can.
Howie.
February 21, 2011 - Email Messages -
Ikuko.
Hi. Tanjoubi omedetou gozaimasu. Please enjoy with your family tonight. Akiko
will be very late tonight. Another event today. Probably will be online a lot.
Send email when you can.
Howie.
February 22, 2011 - Email Messages -
Hey it looks like my wife will be working until maybe ten tonight. If things
stay like this through the Summer then returning home. Already making plans.
Send email when you can. ********
Would you be satisfied? It is not good for kids to be raised with only one
parent in some ways. Akiko does not see Shai at all. Now she has many choices to
make money different ways. Many times fighting because of her job. She can only
look along a very narrow road. If now I am with a motivated woman then things
could be different. She will realize she is making a mistake now. Send email
when you can. ********
Ikuko.
Hey I really do not expect you to understand about many of these things. You are
a very typical Japanese woman. You stayed with your family for many years
without a man and without doing anything different for many years. Now I can
understand it is really Japanese way. You sister is married to a husband who is
gone most of the time. These situations do not seem happy to me at all. What is
the point to get married if you cannot be happy with and maybe even not see your
husband most of the time. It is better to be single. Akiko is also very
Japanese. She is able to put up with any situation for many years. Actually not
every Japanese girl is like this. I was with Rumi and she was very positive and
motivated anytime. It is the same with Ayumi. When she is not happy she does
something to change her situation immediately. It really seems like Japanese
people are very unhappy. Many times Japanese woman I know both in America and in
Japan were crying because they were not happy. They were very happy to talk to
someone who would actually listen to them and not ignore them like in their
marriages. Maybe American has many problems but Americans really know the way to
be happy and be fulfilled. Japanese people think way too much and worry even
more. This is in many ways a very dark and depressing culture. Anyway we will
put the house on the market this week. I am going to put Shai in preschool in a
couple months if he can get in. Basically I am getting set up to go home. Send
email when you can.
Howie. ********
Really I want to say the same to you. Anytime you say kawaisou. It is same as
pity. Many times you say shai should be in preschool and many things about my
personality. It is the same. for some reason when I talk to you it makes me
really think I need to defend the way I am handling my wife and child. Many
times you do not agree with me and it makes me really feel awful and maybe you
think I cannot fit this country and culture. It is very sad. Talk to you again.
********
Hey I really think you cannot understand many things. Since I came to Japan
everyone is judging everything I am doing and decisions I make for my family.
Maybe you are most difficult judge of them all. You say things like “if it was
your kid” and other strong comments. Many times you make me think I am not a
good parent because of your comments. It makes me very sad. It is easy for you
to say many things to me and then you get upset when I say things to you.
Honestly I am very happy with myself and many things. I am not trying to say
anything to make you feel awful. It is simply stating facts. Sometimes you tell
me you want to change your situation and then you continue to do the same things
every day. Then I make a comment about your situation and you get upset. It
really does not seem fair for only you to be able to comment.
In addition many times you makes awful comments about Americans even in front of
friends and students. These comments also make me very sad. You do not keep a
good image of Americans in your mind. Comments like “everyone says you should
give up about Americans” is really not nice to say. It is basing everything on
stereotypes which I need to see every day. Many people including the family said
many things about Americans. It was difficult for me to hold my thinking
anytime. When Akiko was in America she was accepted from my friends like family.
No comments were made about her Japanese background. The fact is Japanese people
think they are better in many ways than other cultures especially other Asian
countries and even over Americans. They look down on other people. It is sad
because many people do not even talk with me in Japan because I am a GAIJIN. In
reality Americans and other “outside people” are simply a curiosity for
Japanese. It does not matter if someone stays in Japan for many years they are
still not accepted.
I realize these days I tell you way too much information. I am not going to
discuss anything personal with you anymore. It makes it too easy for you to
judge and say things. Sometimes all I wanted was a friend who would listen and
not someone who will judge and give advice. I can understand why Akiko likes
friends but does not want to be too close to anyone anytime. Really not sure
what to do with the relationship with you from now. I really need to think. Talk
to you again.
February 27, 2011 - Email Messages -
Ikuko.
Hi. I was really happy to see you again. Hey we should really not talk about my
previous girlfriends and your husband anymore. It is really potential for
fighting anytime. Much better to talk about work opportunities and ways to make
things better. Anyway really wiped out from working in the yard today. Send
email when you can.
Howie. |
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